Where do we draw the line between our own happiness and others opinions? I’ve been trying for the longest time to find that sweet spot. I realize I care too much about others opinions on subjects and how they view me, within my family, my social group, and even people I don’t even know.
I shaved my head. Not completely bald, but I definitely look like Teenage Negasonic Warhead from the Deadpool movie. It makes me happy and comfortable with myself, so why should I care? The answer is… I shouldn’t. Easy right?
Could it be a side effect of low self esteem? Maybe. I feel as if my life choices somehow make others uncomfortable and therefore I hate the things that I do. Then *ding*! The lightbulb in my head goes off and I realize that:
- This is my life. I can’t live trying to make others happy,
- You can’t make 100% of people happy all the time,
- I love myself, and I should do what makes me happy.
I have struggled with my gender for awhile. You all know this. The way I present myself changes on a day to day basis, sometimes multiple times a day depending on how I feel. I sometimes hold off on that switch because I feel that wearing more masculine clothing makes people around me look at me differently and not see me for… me. But recently I’ve been able to break through that barrier, finally. Realizing that if this makes me comfy, why should I hold back?
This college experience has taught me so much in recent months. I can’t believe I am becoming the person I wanted to be for the longest time.
Where do you draw that happiness/others opinions line?